youth knows no pain
My name is Lyka Velez, 17 years old, Scorpio.
Adventurous, self-aware, and outgoing is what I am. Future media producer and PETA advocate.
I love art, and the great outdoors.
Happily Ever After's don't exist but in Disney it does.
Breakfast
Goodmorning everyone.
It's raining, the dogs are playing, my mom's in a good mood, and we're enjoying popsicles. It's a new day and even though I still wanna kill my father and his dumb bitch. Today I can put it aside and focus on taking care of my mother. Which I'm doing better than usual today, maybe because I realized I need to be more responsible or because I feel bad for my mom. Or both.
There's this guy on youtube, his name is the 'AmazingAthiest', and haha, he truly is amazing, the guy speaks the TRUTH. Even though I am a Catholic, I definitely believe in God, but his outspokenness and thirst for truth is what draws me to his videos. He's extremely intelligent aswell. Anyways, he said in a video once, I'm not quoting, but just paraphrasing, he said that people don't feel just one emotion at one time, you feel different emotions all at once and that's what makes us complex. When you're sad, you're not just sad, you're angry, disappointed, maybe relieved? Right now, I feel relaxed, but.. sad, thankful for a new day but.. angry that my father remains undealt with. As soon as he gets there. Oh boy. I will release hell upon him.
Last night I cried myself to sleep, I was so angry, those were anger tears. I kept imagining the different ways I could torture the dumb bitch, I imagined beating her up repeatedly till she bled and lost consciousness, then I imagined stabbing my father over and over again.... EEESH. I don't know how I fell asleep but I did.
I have a theory that the number his whore is using is his old number, because he's using my moms number now... I'll call it and gave the lady a piece of my mind. But first! I need to get load. Can't wait! :)
On a much better note, I feel.. strangely empowered to do anything I want. I feel this sense of freedom. Maybe because now my father has lost the title and authority OF my being my father, I feel I don't have any superiors I should respect, please, or impress. I'm not.. living life for ME. Feels good actually.
There are still moments that I doubt myself.. not about my dad's case, but doubt myself when it comes to my capabilities, but I brush the doubts off my shoulder as soon as it creeps in.
It's raining, the dogs are playing, my mom's in a good mood, and we're enjoying popsicles. It's a new day and even though I still wanna kill my father and his dumb bitch. Today I can put it aside and focus on taking care of my mother. Which I'm doing better than usual today, maybe because I realized I need to be more responsible or because I feel bad for my mom. Or both.
There's this guy on youtube, his name is the 'AmazingAthiest', and haha, he truly is amazing, the guy speaks the TRUTH. Even though I am a Catholic, I definitely believe in God, but his outspokenness and thirst for truth is what draws me to his videos. He's extremely intelligent aswell. Anyways, he said in a video once, I'm not quoting, but just paraphrasing, he said that people don't feel just one emotion at one time, you feel different emotions all at once and that's what makes us complex. When you're sad, you're not just sad, you're angry, disappointed, maybe relieved? Right now, I feel relaxed, but.. sad, thankful for a new day but.. angry that my father remains undealt with. As soon as he gets there. Oh boy. I will release hell upon him.
Last night I cried myself to sleep, I was so angry, those were anger tears. I kept imagining the different ways I could torture the dumb bitch, I imagined beating her up repeatedly till she bled and lost consciousness, then I imagined stabbing my father over and over again.... EEESH. I don't know how I fell asleep but I did.
I have a theory that the number his whore is using is his old number, because he's using my moms number now... I'll call it and gave the lady a piece of my mind. But first! I need to get load. Can't wait! :)
On a much better note, I feel.. strangely empowered to do anything I want. I feel this sense of freedom. Maybe because now my father has lost the title and authority OF my being my father, I feel I don't have any superiors I should respect, please, or impress. I'm not.. living life for ME. Feels good actually.
There are still moments that I doubt myself.. not about my dad's case, but doubt myself when it comes to my capabilities, but I brush the doubts off my shoulder as soon as it creeps in.