Okay so.. right now I am fighting back tears, because I just found out my father's mistress stopped by the house looking for him and my dad was hiding from her, as soon as my brother told me, I called him up and confronted him. I heard him give me the nervous laugh and kept feeding me bullshit. I called him a fucking liar and hung up. I am so FUCKING SICK of these things happening to me. I HATE CRYING! even though it feels good to be weak for ONCE. But no, I can't right now, I can't let anyone see me like this. Especially my mom. She's sleeping right now. I told everyone to fuck off. I put on my iPod, and now I'm listening to Christina Aguilera, I need to be strong, I don't deserve this, my mom doesn't deserve this. I might look back at this and think I'm overreacting but haha, nope. I wish I was overreacting, but this is the real deal. Wow. fuckin wow. I have never felt so betrayed in my life. and I'm not the one who's being cheated on. MEN ARE FUCKING PIGS! PIGS!!!! HES A FUCKING PIG! I HOPE HE DIES! I cant look at his DISGUSTING face ever again! FUCKING PIG! DISGUSTING! I HOPE HE GOES TO FUCKING HELL! life just keeps gettin better doesnt it? Story of my fuckin life.

I have lost all respect for my father. I wish him and his whore all the fuckin best. I hope both of them crash and burn. FUCK people like my dad. DISGUSTING PIECES OF SHIT. WHY? WHY??? WHY????

But you know what? I have never felt more determined to destroy the people who destroyed my life. Im taking this on stride. I'll fucking make them hate they were born.