youth knows no pain
My name is Lyka Velez, 17 years old, Scorpio.
Adventurous, self-aware, and outgoing is what I am. Future media producer and PETA advocate.
I love art, and the great outdoors.
Happily Ever After's don't exist but in Disney it does.
LESS YOU. MORE ME.
I am broke. Not money broke, but.. broken?
I've always prided myself on being cool calm collected, and my ability to remain rational and view situations objectively, but, lately, with everything plaguing my thoughts, I'm just angry. Really angry. I'm tired of being pushed around and walked over, and it's no one else's fault but mine. I want to avoid conflict so much I end up letting people have their way just to make them shut up and for everyone to get on with their lives.
I forgot how it is to actually fight for what I WANT. Its always me GIVING, and caring for others, , and zipping my mouth shut and swallowing that burning NEED to yell at everyone, that I end up being taken advantage of! and what ANGERS me the most is that, I know I'm not that person! Yes I am a humanitarian at heart, but Lyka Velez is no doormat! The Lyka I know is fierce, proud, and not always liked, but.. ADMIRED! Now I am.. ALWAYS liked, and still a little admired, but I am everyone's go-to person for pep talks, complements and motivation (if there was another me, I would go to her everyday, I need... someone like me), because I almost never refuse to help, I have a very giving heart, I get joy from helping other people find their own joy, and in the end, I help them reach the top, and where am I? At the bottom! It's after I help raise this person to be the best that they can be, that I realize that I'm still down here! Unable to help myself! I always put people first before myself, and you know what, I have had ENOUGH. No more being NICE. I am bringing back the old Lyka who went by the name Angelica.
When I was Angelica (which is my real name, Lyka is my nickname), GURL. I let nothing get in my way, I didn't give a second glance to anyone around me, it was ME, loving MYSELF, helping MYSELF, improving MYSELF, and taking care of MYSELF! That's alot of ME's but the life I'm leading now, there is NO 'ME'.
My dad always taught me, put yourself first, before anyone else (the Bible does say so)!
When I get back to Dubai, there will be a change, and mark my words, I am NOT letting myself put others before me.
I've always prided myself on being cool calm collected, and my ability to remain rational and view situations objectively, but, lately, with everything plaguing my thoughts, I'm just angry. Really angry. I'm tired of being pushed around and walked over, and it's no one else's fault but mine. I want to avoid conflict so much I end up letting people have their way just to make them shut up and for everyone to get on with their lives.
I forgot how it is to actually fight for what I WANT. Its always me GIVING, and caring for others, , and zipping my mouth shut and swallowing that burning NEED to yell at everyone, that I end up being taken advantage of! and what ANGERS me the most is that, I know I'm not that person! Yes I am a humanitarian at heart, but Lyka Velez is no doormat! The Lyka I know is fierce, proud, and not always liked, but.. ADMIRED! Now I am.. ALWAYS liked, and still a little admired, but I am everyone's go-to person for pep talks, complements and motivation (if there was another me, I would go to her everyday, I need... someone like me), because I almost never refuse to help, I have a very giving heart, I get joy from helping other people find their own joy, and in the end, I help them reach the top, and where am I? At the bottom! It's after I help raise this person to be the best that they can be, that I realize that I'm still down here! Unable to help myself! I always put people first before myself, and you know what, I have had ENOUGH. No more being NICE. I am bringing back the old Lyka who went by the name Angelica.
When I was Angelica (which is my real name, Lyka is my nickname), GURL. I let nothing get in my way, I didn't give a second glance to anyone around me, it was ME, loving MYSELF, helping MYSELF, improving MYSELF, and taking care of MYSELF! That's alot of ME's but the life I'm leading now, there is NO 'ME'.
My dad always taught me, put yourself first, before anyone else (the Bible does say so)!
When I get back to Dubai, there will be a change, and mark my words, I am NOT letting myself put others before me.
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